My Kinda Blue…

…we are taught how to become an ‘individual’ most of the time…so what happens when your ‘individuality’ overtaken certain situation? you get blamed for being ‘unreasonable’…what kind of world do we lived in anyways…? one gets called ‘nosy’ when they get worried sick about another…’insensitive’ when they think you get care about them enough…’stupid’ because nobody ever ask you to care…’drama queen’ because you made a big fuss under the influence of anger without having much thought first…whatever happens happened. If it doesn’t kill you, it’ll only make you stronger! so who can blame me for these walls i’ve built around me….individuality’s been raped over and over again…

I’m not entirely sure how to put my thoughts down now in correct phrases…but i guess for me most of the time it’s always been neither black or white when it comes to the matters of the heart…that good ‘ol bag of bones buried deep deep inside had recently found a way to surface again. Maybe it’s things like this that is most unpredictable, or maybe it’s been buggin’ me long enough that i’ve finally decided(after some encouragement) that something must be done to be rid of the demons haunting deep inside…i guess if this goes on…i’ll never be able to see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow or even get another chance to see rainbows after the rain! so here you go…i’m looking for that closed door and if i don’t get to see it properly closed behind me, i don’t think i’ll be able to use another exit for the time being…

"…I wish you bluebirds in the Spring                                    

To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love!
…And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love!
…My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never ever be
So with my best, my very best, I set you free!"